Saturday, November 15, 2014

The Rain Washes Over Me

~The Rain Washes over Me~
When the rain comes I find myself exposed. 
I didn’t expect the storm this time. 
The dark clouds rolled in swiftly to pillage my warmed soul.

I felt the Sun and its warmth gently kiss my face and I was drunk with anticipation. 
The shimmer nourished the dark cold recesses of my slumbering spirit.
It only peeked from behind its hiding place for a few brief moments, but that is all it took. 
I knew in an instant the power and strength of its magnetism. 
Just as unexpectedly as the dazzling rays shone so brightly, they quickly waned.

In the brilliance my scars were no longer hidden by the cloak of sorrow.
Raw and hideous like Pan, even Apollo recoiled aghast with provocation. 
The indifferent rain suspends my foolish reverie.
With outstretched arms and my face toward the heavens I welcome the rain.
Cleansing tears from angels above wash over my brokenness.
Rinse free the stains of despair and restore the promise of paradise.
Without concession the clouds linger, the rain engulfs and washes away the anguish.

Serenaded by the sweet song of hope and clarity sweet ambrosia and nectar nourish me.
Renewed and radiant, I await the Sun. 

Is Love Impossible to Find Again?

I think I finally understand why there are so many single people.  Although many will say it's a choice to remain single, the truth is - it's hard to find love.

Perhaps hard is a bit of an understatement- I'm starting to wonder if it's next to impossible.  Now let us not mistake finding physical companionship with finding love.  I think it's quite easy to find the former and I think many resign themselves to continuing down that particular path jumping from casual encounter to the next casual encounter to stave off the incredible overwhelming feelings that inevitably come from being alone.  Frankly I think it's a coward's way out.  Sure one may feel a momentary reprieve from the loneliness and emptiness that plagues so many singletons, but it is a poor substitute to that deep soulful connection that is spiritually, physically and emotionally so gratifying.

So what is one to do?  How do you quiet that dream of having love again?  How do you fill the void that remains in a heart that once flourished in love?  How do you keep the faith that another opportunity will come?  How can you unlearn that magic that is only realized when you totally lose yourself to another?  

Sadly I do not have answers - just questions, unanswered questions.